A Sam Update

[isamy23]

To all of those out there who still read my posts, Thank you. It's been way too long since my last post. I'm shocked I'm even still here, in the first place. Life is supposed to be grand and wonderful, right? Well, sad news: Life is not grand and wonderful unless you make is that way. If you're anything like me, suffering from mild to extreme depression every so often, you'd know what I'm talking about when I say that karma is a B****! Am i right? You do all these great things and you give back, but when it comes down to it, You have the worst of luck. I recently have been helping people and have been giving to my community with advice on their love and life. Which, by the way, if any one of you need help, try emailing me: [email protected]. Most chances are, I'm gonna respond to an email than any reply on here. Most of you know, I'm not the best replier. Anyhoo, back to what i was ranting off about, life is a bag of crap. For myself, i give and give, but I never receive anything. Maybe I'm doing more bad things than good things. :/ Maybe thats why I'm being punished. KARMA people, I'm telling you!! You do bad things, more bad things are coming to get you. You do good things, you have to struggle to get to a happy place (like where you are finally happy). My church is big on Trials. God will love you for who you are. Your life is in his hands. Some how I think of myself as an angel sent from heaven given to a guy who's like my boss and no matter what I do, he gives me half a$$ answers. And to be honest. It's total bullcrap that i could Even be given such terrible treatment. Shouldnt all angels be blessed to live here? Then why don't I feel blessed? Why Do I feel like total crap in the savior's and the devil's hands? I wished as a child that I would be rich and famous. I wished to be happy. I wished to be pretty. I wished to have a job and a college degree. I wished soooooo much. But I didnt get anything like that but the talent to be great in bed and the pretty wish. Out of all the crap I wished for, why did it have to be those? I'm good in bed, so what? I'm now skanky because i have the gift to bring my man pleasure... BIG EFFIN DEAL!! It's just soooo annoying that I have to go through that. :/ i feel im here on earth to make others happy, but what about me?! What am I to do. Maybe it's just my depression and my lack of faith at the moment, but this is coming from a short, 19 yr old woman with an australian boyfriend, no job, no school, no life ahead because of these things... and depression. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?! COULD I GET A BIT OF LUCK FOR ONCE?! IS THAT REALLY SO DAMN HARD TO DO?! ~pants a bit, then sighs~ Sorry.. I'm done.. I'm gonna go read a magazine or something...

[Anonymously Famous]

Australia, huh? That's cool.

I hope you have a lot of support in your struggle with depression.

[atomtengeralattjaro]

luck is not divided equally.