depression/anxiety

Uly · Post by **Uly** » Sun May 05, 2019 5:53 am

I'm in a conflicted point in my life right now. I am losing contact and connection with a lot of my friends, I have trouble eating and sleeping, and I often feel physically sick. I've been taking more risks as well, using drugs like nicotine and opioids more, and breaking various laws. I know I could have any job I wanted if I worked hard enough, but I often think about robbing and selling drugs. I constantly doubt my own abilities, and I have loss interests in many of my favorite things (reading, drumming, writing, drawing, basketball, etc.) I often feel awkward, and it's getting harder to talk to people I trust. I have not really sought help yet because I'm afraid of appearing whiny, having first world problems, etc. I live in constant fear that I'm facing things that everyone goes through and I'm not strong enough to deal with it. Most of all, I feel some sort of impending doom. I'm not sure what I am supposed to do next. If there is anybody who has had similar experiences, how do/did you deal with it? This has been going on and off for about a year, and I don't see an end to it in the foreseeable future.

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Post by **Shai'tan** » Mon May 06, 2019 6:48 am

Firstly I want to say that you should definitely try to get help, professional help if you can. It's not whiny or a first world problem, it's very real and that is all that matters. Talking to a therapist is something you can do even if you feel like you have no issues at all.
Besides this I can tell you that you're not alone in feeling like this, it's not that you're not "strong" enough. While it sounds cliché I would really recommend you to try to stop the drugs, especially opioids, and the lawbreaking. The short term relief you get from these actions is something you will regret later and in the worst case may end up making everything way worse. Same is true for robbing and selling drugs of course. I really hope you don't resort to this.
Something that helped me was setting goals I would try to achieve. Easy and specific goals, such as "This month I will try to go to the gym 2 days a week" kind of deal. Spend some time thinking about what you want to do and make small step-like goals to achieve that.
A good first goal is just to get a doctors appointment, with the ultimate goal to get help.
I'm afraid that with the mental state you are in you are going to dismiss a lot of what is said. This is a lot of the reason why I hope you seek professional help, while we're always here for you, talking to someone in person, that is qualified, is likely to help a lot more.

Keep in mind that this is a downward spiral that you want to get out of as soon as possible. Your brain will think a lot of negative shit and that sucks, but it's normal and you shouldn't listen to it even though you want to.

assdef · Post by **assdef** » Tue May 07, 2019 3:48 am

https://www.samhsa.gov/find-treatment

SAMHSA's national hotline (1-800-662-4357) has helped me. They'll put you in contact with someone locally (in person or phone) who you can talk to for free. It's anonymous, too. Worth checking out.

Anonymously Famous · Post by **Anonymously Famous** » Mon Jun 03, 2019 3:42 pm

I know it's been a month since this was posted, but I just want to basically say "amen" to what both assdef and Shai have said.

Uly · Post by **Uly** » Thu Aug 22, 2019 2:57 am

im alive

Post by **atomtengeralattjaro** » Thu Aug 22, 2019 5:46 pm

Glad to hear that.

Froggychum · Post by **Froggychum** » Sun Aug 25, 2019 1:02 pm

big pog

hope things are better, i have no good advice

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